Post-Apocalyptic Wasteland: The Female Protagonist Has Become a God

Chapter 129 Love or Not?

"Are you deaf?" Cang Xingyue broke free from Lu Siyan and turned around to say impatiently.

Lu Siyan subconsciously reached out to take her hand, but she turned away.

He dejectedly withdrew his empty hand and lowered his eyes.

"What do you want me to understand? To understand your disgust for me? To understand why you avoid me like the plague?" He paused for a moment, then, as if using all his remaining strength, said, "Or to understand that you never loved me..."

He stared intently at Cang Xingyue, stepped forward, grabbed her shoulders, and asked, "Tell me, which one should I understand?"

Seeing him like this, Cang Xingyue felt a pang of pain in her heart and suddenly felt a little sorry for him.

Since he already knows all this, why does he still insist on keeping her? His desperate clinging only brings him the pain of unrequited love. Lu Siyan, why bother...?

Lu Siyan caught a fleeting glimpse of sadness in the eyes of the person in front of him, which further confirmed his belief that he was Cang Xingyue.

Was she upset because of his touch? Thinking of this, Lu Siyan felt even more dejected. He hurriedly let go of her hand and took a step back.

"I'm sorry," he said.

Cang Xingyue looked at Lu Siyan with a puzzled expression.

"I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for leaving you, I'm sorry for restricting your freedom, I'm sorry for my clinging, I'm sorry for my touching, I'm sorry for my love for you..."

"enough!"

His almost self-destructive and humble apology was too much for Cang Xingyue to bear. Every word was like a needle piercing her heart, leaving it raw and bleeding.

It also made her realize how cold and indifferent she had been about her feelings for him all along.

She couldn't help but ask herself what kind of feelings she truly had for Lu Siyan.

I carefully recall every little detail from the past.

She thought that initially, because he had deprived her of her freedom and forcibly kept her by his side, she was powerless against him and faced the constant risk of being strangled to death by him. She felt disgusted and fearful of Lu Siyan.

When they met again, she had the ability to stand up to him. She no longer feared Lu Siyan, but was only annoyed with him.

During those months together, she felt Lu Siyan's kindness towards her and her opinion of him changed; his image in her heart went from negative to positive.

She started treating him as a friend, but the budding seed of love was quickly cut short by him and crushed by his indifference.

"More than friends, but not quite lovers"—that's the conclusion Sousei Light reached.

"I don't understand what you're saying. I'll say it again, I'm not the one you're looking for. Don't have the wrong person in mind," Cang Xingyue said with a stern face, feigning indifference.

"Cang Xingyue!" This was the first time Lu Siyan had called her name; he almost shouted it out.

"I know it's you. I've always remembered your scent. Please stop avoiding me, okay?"

He couldn't resist taking a step forward and pulling her into his arms. "A-Yue, I truly love you. Can you trust me just this once?"

"No one has ever taught me how to love someone correctly, but I can learn. I will learn how to love you and do my best to make you happy. Can you give me a chance?"

Cang Xingyue subconsciously raised her hand to push him away, but suddenly stopped and put it down. She sighed helplessly and raised her hand again to push him away.

Lu Siyan was deeply hurt after being pushed away once again.

Cang Xingyue took out a blue bracelet from her pocket, which she had confiscated from Qian Xiaowu earlier. She pulled Lu Siyan's hand and put it on him.

“Without the wristband, the security guards will be able to locate you,” she explained.

Since things had come to this point, she no longer wanted to pretend. After confirming that no one was around, she took off her mask and revealed her true appearance.

"Lu Siyan, let go. I'm sorry for your love. I can't give you any response."

She still has important things to do, and now she's just one step away. That day might come soon, and when it does, she will definitely be separated from everyone, with no possibility of ever crossing paths again.

Therefore, she cannot give Lu Siyan any response now, nor can she be with him, as she does not want to feel sad when they part.

"Why? Do you really hate me that much? You won't even give me a chance?" Lu Siyan asked, his eyes filled with resentment.

“I stopped disliking you a long time ago. As for what happened that day, I was indeed very angry at the time, but I don’t care about it now. I would treat anyone else the same way, let alone you.”

Cang Xingyue spoke softly and gently.

“Go back. Just pretend I’m dead. Just pretend you’ve never seen me,” she said again.

After saying these words, Cang Xingyue put her mask back on and transformed back into her original appearance.

A cloud of yellow sand rose from behind the tree, and a red figure disappeared silently with it.

Lu Siyan laughed angrily, "Fine, well said! 'Pretend you're dead!' How can I pretend I've never seen you? How can I forget you?!"

Lu Siyan's gray eyes turned crimson as his anger surged.

"I will never let you go, never! You'll never get rid of me in this lifetime!"

"You're absolutely unreasonable!"

That bastard, he just won't listen to anything I say.

Cang Xingyue suddenly felt a headache coming on.

Lu Siyan scoffed, "Think what you want. My image in your heart is already terrible, and I don't mind if it gets any worse."

He reached out to grab Cang Xingyue's hand, wanting to take her home directly, but she dodged him.

The two instantly clashed like needles against wheat awns, attacking each other without hesitation, their supernatural abilities flying everywhere.

The attack missed its target and landed on the ground, striking the lush, leafy garden of the Withered Garden. With several loud bangs, the ground was smashed open, creating several cracks.

The two dodged each other's supernatural attacks, shifting back and forth.

"You scoundrel, if you're so capable, don't try to hide."

"You damned woman! If you're so capable, stand still and take my superpower."

The two simultaneously unleashed their supernatural attacks at each other and simultaneously tried to dodge them.

Before they knew it, the two had entered the garden.

"boom!"

The two of them stepped on the cracked ground and fell down together in an instant.

Inside the spacious laboratory, a man in a white lab coat was shaking a test tube, causing the green liquid inside to slosh around.

A person wearing a red cloak pushed open the door and strode in, stopping a short distance away.

"Sir, your guess was correct, that person is indeed her."

"Were you discovered following her?"

The man in the red cloak shook his head and said, "No, I left quickly after hearing the news."

"It's fine if you don't."

"I suspected him from the day she entered the base, and sure enough, it was the Dongliu base chief."

"Sir, you are truly a prophet," the man in the red cloak flattered.

The man scoffed dismissively.

"Have you found the person I asked you to find last time?"

"I'm sorry, sir, I've checked the Dongliu base. It's completely empty; there's no one there. They're all dead, but there isn't a single body..."

"I have not yet found Shu Yin, and I do not know whether he is dead or alive."